Fic: Seaflowers
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viceindustriousTitle: Seaflowers
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes 2009
Pairing: Blackwood/Coward
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Not mine, just playing.
Summary: Dreams of the sea.
Word count: 500
Notes: I'm not really sure if this will make sense to anyone but me. :S
In his cell, Coward dreams of the borders of the sea.
The wind is a whip at this height, sharpened by salt and split by the mist of sea water, the grit of sand caught in the air. He can feel it on the back of his neck, bare, licking under his collar while the waves roar against the rocks below. Dawn is late coming, hemmed back by storm clouds. He stand at the edge of the cliff and waits for the sun.
Squints against the white glare of the sky. Blinks.
A summer’s day twenty-five years in the past, sitting in deckchairs on the lawn. The wind is coming off the ocean, his hands are sticky with lemon juice. (Lemon rind pressed between his fingers, his mother looking on sourly, painted mouth pressed into a grimace. Both sting.) His father is telling him a story of his time in the Admiralty.
"You have to be careful when you start getting far out at sea, son."
"Why?"
"Sea monsters of course."
"Peter, you’ll give him nightmares."
His father looks pensive and does not argue.
Coward wakes at that moment. His cell is never dark, just dim. Everything in grey. The shadows cover him like a shroud, the life inside him is only a shallow heartbeat trapped in a husk, his soul is far, far gone.
"What kind of sea monsters, sir?" he asks, nine years old.
"Oh all kinds."
"What kinds?" Wriggling on his bed.
"Teeth as long as your arm. Huge tails that can knock a boat straight out of the water!"
"Aren’t you afraid?"
"Ah, well there's a lesson for you, my boy. Cowards are made of sterner stuff than that."
He closes his eyes and imagines himself back in his childhood bed. The book under his pillow has a broken spine. The pages have dark spots in places, parts where his fingertips have rubbed too often. The red ribbon of its bookmark is frayed at the end and probably would have fallen loose a long time ago if it had ever been moved from its place.
In the deep are large fish, which are not easily caught.
Words printed in small, grey letters at the bottom of the page. Above them lies a large coloured woodcut of the ocean. The green of the seawater is like the sound a shell makes when you press it against your ear, deep and reverberating, light and dark in alternating dappled patterns, expansive.
The green of the seawater is like Henry's eyes. The curling strength of the cresting waves, Henry's touch. Henry's voice, the current that takes him. Out past the gardens of seaweed, tangled like thick rope, past carp with thin red mouths. Into the deep where different shadows bloom immense in the distance. Whale song piercing his heart and pinning him in place.
Tomorrow he will hang and the ocean will fall into him.
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes 2009
Pairing: Blackwood/Coward
Rating: G
Disclaimer: Not mine, just playing.
Summary: Dreams of the sea.
Word count: 500
Notes: I'm not really sure if this will make sense to anyone but me. :S
In his cell, Coward dreams of the borders of the sea.
The wind is a whip at this height, sharpened by salt and split by the mist of sea water, the grit of sand caught in the air. He can feel it on the back of his neck, bare, licking under his collar while the waves roar against the rocks below. Dawn is late coming, hemmed back by storm clouds. He stand at the edge of the cliff and waits for the sun.
Squints against the white glare of the sky. Blinks.
A summer’s day twenty-five years in the past, sitting in deckchairs on the lawn. The wind is coming off the ocean, his hands are sticky with lemon juice. (Lemon rind pressed between his fingers, his mother looking on sourly, painted mouth pressed into a grimace. Both sting.) His father is telling him a story of his time in the Admiralty.
"You have to be careful when you start getting far out at sea, son."
"Why?"
"Sea monsters of course."
"Peter, you’ll give him nightmares."
His father looks pensive and does not argue.
Coward wakes at that moment. His cell is never dark, just dim. Everything in grey. The shadows cover him like a shroud, the life inside him is only a shallow heartbeat trapped in a husk, his soul is far, far gone.
"What kind of sea monsters, sir?" he asks, nine years old.
"Oh all kinds."
"What kinds?" Wriggling on his bed.
"Teeth as long as your arm. Huge tails that can knock a boat straight out of the water!"
"Aren’t you afraid?"
"Ah, well there's a lesson for you, my boy. Cowards are made of sterner stuff than that."
He closes his eyes and imagines himself back in his childhood bed. The book under his pillow has a broken spine. The pages have dark spots in places, parts where his fingertips have rubbed too often. The red ribbon of its bookmark is frayed at the end and probably would have fallen loose a long time ago if it had ever been moved from its place.
In the deep are large fish, which are not easily caught.
Words printed in small, grey letters at the bottom of the page. Above them lies a large coloured woodcut of the ocean. The green of the seawater is like the sound a shell makes when you press it against your ear, deep and reverberating, light and dark in alternating dappled patterns, expansive.
The green of the seawater is like Henry's eyes. The curling strength of the cresting waves, Henry's touch. Henry's voice, the current that takes him. Out past the gardens of seaweed, tangled like thick rope, past carp with thin red mouths. Into the deep where different shadows bloom immense in the distance. Whale song piercing his heart and pinning him in place.
Tomorrow he will hang and the ocean will fall into him.
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Date: 2010-09-17 12:37 am (UTC)If your brain jerked off watching Holmes fuck Spock while Einstein fapped in the corner, and then it, your brain, jizzed directly into my brain? It might feel something like this.
Overly thinky and complicated in a very very very good way.
Also, pretty sure this is the first time I've ever seen a Papa Coward I've been like AWWWWWW YAY!
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Date: 2010-09-17 04:44 pm (UTC)Thank you!
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Date: 2010-09-17 04:19 am (UTC)I am slain. Death by poetry.
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Date: 2010-09-17 04:45 pm (UTC)Awww, thank you, that's a lovely compliment.
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Date: 2010-09-17 05:17 am (UTC)Besides. It's gorgeous.
licking under his collar Ok, I did totally have a giggle moment there because I was all like, even the elements want Coward! He's just that nommy! wth.
painted mouth pressed into a grimace. Both sting. Sharp. Sliced open and slid under the skin. I don't know what I'm saying.
And it's really cool to see some parents! I mean, have we ever? We've gotten wee!Coward, but family?
His father looks pensive and does not argue. You wonder if there's the first hint of something here in Coward, that he wouldn't have nightmares - or that he'd welcome them.
Cowards are made of sterner stuff than that I just. I said it to Megan today too. I love wordplay on Coward's name, because I am awfully silly, but also, there's a thought in there, aside from the teasing that is adorable, that there's something about being a coward that's ... not as cowardly as it seems? Idk. Admitting to and relentlessly being a coward takes a certain level of strange self awareness and seriously, what am I on tonight.
The book under his pillow has a broken spine. Aside from the fact that books with broken spines make me whimper, I'm all, eep. Broken. Eeeeep.
In the deep are large fish, which are not easily caught. There's layers of possession and pride and terror and biblical and beautiful monstrosity and a certain level of differing morality/survival. It's ... it catches me, and just holds me there for a moment.
You do this dream within a nightmare thing so very well.
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Date: 2010-09-17 05:25 pm (UTC)Dude, I love what you're on. Your random thoughts are endlessly illuminating, you just can't help it.
Don't think I'll ever get over how awesome it is for you to get stuff from what I've written that I was hoping would be seen and, yeah...me, flailing. I feel like this is really oblique but possession and pride and terror and biblical and beautiful monstrosity that's exactly what was going through my head and. Oh. You. ILU. Like epic amounts. You don't even know.
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Date: 2010-09-17 05:34 pm (UTC)Or that's me. (I can't help it pretty much sums it up. Endlessly amusing, at least. :D)
I flail back that the stuff I see isn't fragments of my imagination. But it being you, with all the layers upon layers (it's like a piece of baklava, exactly that layered and tasty and I must be hungry or something.) I always feel terribly proud of myself if I catch even the slightest hint of something lurking in the depths. Whoa. That line stands very well for your writing as a whole, in fact. MMMMM.
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Date: 2010-09-17 10:01 am (UTC)"Cowards are made of sterner stuff than that." - WONDERFUl nameplay! And it tells me a great deal about Coward and how he was raised, more so than anything said before it in this story.
The final descriptive paragraph is a haunting reverie. Your prose is so close to poetry that I'd love to see you compose a genuine prose poem.
A lovely story that tells a great deal with a modicum of language, the descriptions notwithstanding. Very, very nice work. :-)
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Date: 2010-09-17 05:19 pm (UTC)Eep! Actual poetry scares me. The rules/lack of rules, there's a freedom in poetry that's actually quite terrifying.
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Date: 2010-09-18 07:16 am (UTC)Let the terror lead you! ;-D
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Date: 2010-09-17 07:02 pm (UTC)Beautiful. Simply beautiful. Though the rest was stunning as well, this -- aww. It's kind of like when you walk through a garden full of flowers, and they're all really nice to look at, but then you see one that outshines all of them . . . and I hope that made sense.
Also. I now have a picture of pirate!Coward running around in my head.
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Date: 2010-09-20 02:54 am (UTC)(Oh I can't help thinking Coward would be a terrible pirate, he's so well put together and pirate ships are so very chaotic :P but someone could write a fic and prove me wrong, ha.)
Eep! Thank you! I like that line! Even though it's kind of self indulgent. This is such a lovely comment. How poetic is your feedback? Very poetic! Flowers, I love it! :D
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Date: 2010-09-20 06:44 pm (UTC)So it wasn't too weird? Because I wanted to leave some coherent feedback for once, but my own words sounded kind of weird to me after I wrote them. But that line? It's GENIOUS. And it's not self-indulgence if you admit that, it's the truth :P
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Date: 2010-09-21 05:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-09-18 07:39 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-09-20 02:45 am (UTC)*breathes a sigh of relief*
Thank you! Your comments are always very reassuring.
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Date: 2010-09-19 05:22 pm (UTC)In the deep are large fish, which are not easily caught.
Is that an actual quote from an actual book or are you just so amazing that it feels familiar despite it totally not being?
And then I love how Coward's mind always goes back to Henry, ties everything he's ever felt or thought up in Henry, relating it so there's never a moment where it seems he hasn't been waiting for that kind of love and power to overtake him.
YOU, EVERYTIME, JUST, BLOW MY MIND.
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Date: 2010-09-20 02:51 am (UTC)Oh you. Thank you. *bashful* I am so pleased not to be letting you down in the mind blowing department. :3
And yes, yes, everything is Henry and gosh, never a moment where it seems he hasn't been waiting for that kind of love and power to overtake him that right there is a pretty line in and of itself.